I've been a little quiet...

Dear Beloveds,Sometimes it all feels to far away to feel real. I believe and know you are out there somewhere, but it's so hard to picture your faces since I have never seen you. My heart is open and excited but I know I'm a little hesitant to be too eager to have you here (I'm afraid it will hurt too much!). I believe our agency is doing the right thing by not rushing this process. I trust that they are sincerely looking out for the best interest of children and families in Uganda- to find the best possible solution. For you, this is so hard. Adoption is a beautiful thing, but it means you've lost something so precious, and I"m sorry. I pray for you tonight if you are out there- that God will hold your heart through whatever suffering and loss you may have had to deal with (or what may come).I can't imagine as a little child losing your family and not knowing what is happening. I pray that your future-dad and I will be a source of comfort and peace for you someday. I pray that in the mean-time, you are knowing that you are loved, that God has a good plan for you, and that His heart is bigger for you than you can even fathom. As your future-dad sleeps and I stay awake writing and thinking (you'll see he's the early-bird and I'm the night-owl), I pray that God prepares us to be the best parents to you whenever that time will come. I can hardly imagine and I can hardly wait. Maybe that's why I've been so quiet. Sometimes it's easier not to think about things when you don't know when they may happen. But I know that's not fair to you. I want to think about you and pray for you always,We will soon be officially waiting - as number 4 on the list.  That means we could get matched with you anytime! It could be a few months or it could be years. There is no way for us to know for sure...but I'm trusting God's perfect timing to bring us all together.Love, me