Our hearts are open.
{a photograph from December celebrating my graduation with my MSW in Estes park...just got the film back yesterday :) }
Dear Beloveds, We've been quiet on this blog, lately.After a beautiful time spent in prayer last night with some dear friends, I feel like I'm able to truthfully share how this all has been going.I've been guarding my heart.I've been scared to allow myself to start loving you, beloveds. It's not that I don't love you and don't want to love you, it's that I've been afraid. I've been afraid of letting my heart feel that ache for you- that longing of a mother-heart for her child/children. I know now, that the fear is unfounded. It's not from God."God is love. When we take up permanent residence in a life of love, we live in God and God lives in us. This way, love has the run of the house, becomes at home and mature in us, so that we're free of worry on Judgment Day—our standing in the world is identical with Christ's. There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet fully formed in love". -1 John 4:17-18, The MessageThere is no room in love for fear.See, I've known this truth. I've believed it so many times in my life. But this feels more REAL. Adoption is a BIG DEAL and it involves so much of our heart and requires SO MUCH reliance upon God and believing His faithfulness. God has truly showed His faithfulness to us in big ways this summer. He's provided a big home in a beautiful neighborhood for a price lower than we could have imagined! He's provided us with the 2nd vehicle we've been praying for (again, another great deal- and it's big enough for us, for two of you, and Beanie, too!) He's provided business for me and weddings this summer that have been so wonderful - which will hopefully help build up my photography business. We are so grateful.So I'm entrusting my heart (again) to Jesus, and asking Him to allow my heart to be open. So open to you and open to hope that overflows for you to be ours one day.We are so grateful for the friends and family who have entered into this journey with us, whether by encouragement, financial support, or prayer. We are thankful for how God has used people in our lives to meet us in unique ways through this process.We still don't know exactly where you are, or who you are, but we are praying. We are covering you with prayer and allowing our hearts to love you even now. We are trusting God's provision, guidance, protection, and for anything else that HE knows we need...Praying, beloveds, that you sense God's nearness to you- the love that only He can give- that satisfies all our deep soul-needs. And we're praying He prepares the path before you and us. Ultimately, it's not up to us. And we can rest and walk with Peace and Joy in that fact.WE LOVE YOU and are waiting for you.